Monday, August 07, 2017

Siddhi Lālasā (Part I)

Murti of Lata Manjari at Gadai Gauranga Kunj.


সিদ্ধি লালসা
Siddhi Lālasā

This is a set of ten songs that comes at the end of Bhaktivinoda Thakur's Giti-malika, published in 1893. The first one of the ten, "kabe gaura-bane", also appears in Sharanagati, another collection.

Part II, songs 4-6
Part III, songs 7-10

[১] কবে গৌরবনে :: Sadhana in Gauda Mandal


কবে গৌর-বনে সুরধুনী তটে,
হা রাধে হা কৃষ্ণ বলে
কাঁদিয়া বেড়াব, দেহ সুখ ছাড়ি,
নানা লতা তরু তলে (১)

kabe gaura-bane suradhunī taṭe,
hā rādhe hā kṛṣṇa bale
kāɱdiẏā beḏāba, deha sukha chāḏi,
nānā latā taru tale (1)

In Gauranga's forest, on the banks of the Ganga
calling out "Hā Rādhe! Hā Krishna!"
when will I wander, weeping, abandoning worldly pleasure
beneath the many trees and vines?


(কবে) শ্বপচগৃহেতে, মাগিয়া খাইব
পিব সরস্বতীজল
(কবে) পুলিনে পুলিনে, গড়াগড়ি দিব,
করি কৃষ্ণ-কোলাহল (২)

(kabe) śvapaca-gṛhete, māgiẏā khaiba,
piba sarasvatī-jala
puline puline, gaḏāgaḏi diba,
kari kṛṣṇa-kolāhala (2)

Oh, when will I beg food from untouchable homes
and drink water from the Saraswati (Jalangi) ?
When will I roll on the banks of the sacred rivers,
making a great din, shouting, “Krishna! Krishna!”?

(কবে) ধামবাসী-জনে, প্রণতি করিয়া,
মাগিব কৃপার লেশ
(কবে) বৈষ্ণবচরণরেণু গায় মাখি,
ধরি অবধূত বেশ (৩)

(kabe) dhāma-vāsī-jane, praṇati kariẏā,
māgiba kṛpāra leśa
(kabe) vaiṣṇava-caraṇa-reṇu gāya mākhi,
dhari abadhūta beśa (3)


And when will I offer pranams to the residents of the Dham,
begging from them a single drop of mercy ?
And when will I smear Vaishnava foot dust on my body
and take the dress of an avadhüta ?


গৌড়ৱ্রজজনে ভেদ না দেখিব
হইব বরজবাসী
(তখন) ধামের স্বরূপ স্ফুরিবে নযনে
হইব রাধার দাসী (৪)

gauḏa-vraja-jane bheda nā dekhiba
ha-iba baraja-bāsī
(takhana) dhāmera svarūpa sphuribe nayane
ha-iba rādhāra dāsī (4)

When I cease to make distinctions between
the residents of Gauda and Vraja Dham,
I will become resident of Vraja.
Then the Dham will appear directly before my eyes
and I will become Radha’s dasi.



[2] Identity with the spiritual body

দেখিতে দেখিতে, ভুলিব বা কবে,
নিজ স্থুল পরিচয়
নয়নে হেরিব, ব্রজপুর শোভা,
নিত্য চিদানন্দময়

dekhite dekhite, bhuliba bā kabe,
nija sthula paricaẏa
nayane heriba, braja-pura śobhā,
nitya cid-ānanda-maẏa (1)

At that very moment I will forget
my gross bodily identity.
Then before my eyes, I will behold the beauty of Braj,
built of eternal, conscious bliss.

বৃষভানুপুরে, জনম লইব,
জাবটে বিবাহ হবে
ব্রজগোপীভাব, হইবে স্বভাব,
আন ভাব না রহিবে

bṛṣabhānu-pure, janama la-iba,
jābaṭe bibāha habe
braja-gopī-bhāva, ha-ibe svabhāva,
āna bhāva nā rahibe (2)

I will take birth in King Vrishabhanu's citadel,
and be married in Javat village.
My only identity will be that of a Braja gopi,
and no other spirit will remain in me.

নিজ সিদ্ধ দেহ, নিজ সিদ্ধ নাম,
নিজরূপ, স্ববসন
রাধা কৃপা বলে, লভিব বা কবে,
কৃষ্ণ প্রেম প্রকরণ (৩)

nija siddha deha, nija siddha nāma,
nija-rūpa, sva basana
rādhā-kṛpā-bale, labhiba bā kabe,
kṛṣṇa-prema-prakaraṇa (3)

My own eternal spiritual body, my own eternal name,
my beautiful form and clothing --
When will I acquire all these by the power of Radha's mercy,
along with the methods of serving Krishna in love.

যমুনা সলিল, আহরণে গিয়া,
বুঝিব যুগলরস
প্রেমমুগ্ধ হয়ে, পাগলিনী প্রায়,
গাইব রাধার যশ (৪)

yamunā salila, āharaṇe giẏā,
bujhiba yugala-rasa
prema-mugdha hoẏe, pāgalinī prāẏa,
gāiba rādhāra yaśa (4)


While off to collect water from the Yamuna,
I will suddenly understand the Divine Couple's love.
Infatuated with love, almost mad with it,
I will sing out Sri Radha's glories.



[3] Being introduced to Lalita Sakhi

হেন কালে কবে, বিলাস মঞ্জরী,
অনঙ্গ মঞ্জরী আর
আমারে হেরিয়া, অতি কৃপা করি',
বলিবে বচন সার (১)

hena kāle kabe, bilāsa mañjarī,
anaṅga mañjarī ar
āmāre heriẏā, ati kṛpā kari',
balibe bacana sāra (1)

At such a moment, when will Vilasa Manjari
accompanied by Ananga Manjari, take notice
and turning to me with exceeding grace
speak the very words I want to hear?

এসো, এসো, সখি ! শ্রীললিতা গণে ,
জানিব তোমারে আজ
গৃহকথা ছাড়ি, রাধা-কৃষ্ণ ভজ,
ত্যাজিয়া ধরম লাজ (২)

eso, eso, sakhi ! śrī-lalitā-gaṇe ,
jāniba tomāre āja
gṛha-kathā chāḏi, rādhā-kṛṣṇa bhaja,
tyājiẏā dharama-lāja (2)

"Come, come, O sakhi! From now on
you will be counted as one of Lalita Sakhi's group.
Give up your household concerns, duties and shyness:
join us and worship Sri Sri Radha-Madhava!"


সে মধুর বাণী, শুনিয়া এ জন,
সে দুঁহার শ্রী-চরণে
আশ্রয় লইবে, দুঁহে কৃপা করি,
লইবে ললিতাস্থানে (৩)

se madhura bāṇī, śuniẏā e jana,
se duɱhāra śrī-caraṇe
āśraẏa la-ibe, duɱhe kṛpā kari',
la-ibe lalitā-sthāne (3)

Hearing such sweet words, this fortunate soul
will take shelter of both guru sakhis' lotus feet,
and they will show me their merciful favor
by bringing me into Lalita's presence.

ললিতা সুন্দরী, সদয় হইয়া,
করিবে আমারে দাসী
স্বকুঞ্জ-কুটীরে, দিবেন বসতি,
জানি সেবা অভিলাষী (৪)

lalitā sundarī, sadaẏa ha-iẏā,
karibe āmāre dāsī
sva-kuñja-kuṭīre, dibena basati,
jāni sebā-abhilāṣī (4)

Then beautiful Lalita Sakhi will be gracious towards me
and make me her own maidservant.
She'll give me residence in a small cottage in her own garden,
knowing how deeply I desire to serve.




Vilasa Manjari is the spiritual name of Bhaktivinoda Thakur's guru, and Ananga Manjari is Jahnava Mata, the founder of our initiating succession. They are seen as the ones who take Kamala into Lalita's association and arrange for direct service. This is how Bhaktivinoda Thakur saw the disciplic succession.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Respected obeisances Babaji!

I always love to read your articles. I can't thank you enough for them.

I wish to ask something, kindly clarify it, it'll be a big thing for me.

Query: I have heard people who have taken birth in Vrindavan are special, being evolved spiritually.

How true is this?

What I've observed is people here are as good or as worse as anywhere else. There are thieves, cheaters here. There are young men lusting after girls on streets.

What exactly is the position of people born in Vrindavan?

It would be really a big help to me.

Thank you so much.

Ys

Prem Prakash said...

This is so very beautiful, Jagadananda dass. Thank you.
More posts, please!